Another year has past and I feel that same sense of loss as I did last year at this time. Always at this time I would call her and we would talk about what’s going on in our lives and like always she would pass on some wisdom or give me advice when she saw fit, or even just give me a different view of a topic/though/issue - she saw more than I could see if that makes any sense. The only different thing this year is my own journey in openeing my mind. I’ve been in therapy since last May to deall with other issues and the therapist I’m seeing showed me a world I didn’t see, just like Mom would do. She told me that we as humans/souls vibrate in different frequencies - the one we see are within our frequencies at this time. The ones who pass on from their bodies vibrate at a higher frequencies and the only place we could somehow communicate would be when we dream. Now, me being the ever agnostic, sometimes athiest man of science did not buy this at all. One session. near the end, my therapist looked at me and said she is all around you, still watching over you, protecting you - I felt something and I just lost it just like I’m “misting” now thinking about it - it all made sense. Nothing is by accident, everything that happens in our lives has a defined sequence and we don’t always control every outcome, you make choices but sometimes there’s intervention. I still don’t belive god or some deity has anything to do with it but I don’t mock people who believe it. I now believe that my lioness Mom is till protecting her cubs, just like I will be protecting my cub when I pass on - especially with the strong will that I have. My Mom is with me all the time - I get that now and sometimes I have dreams of us doing simple things together like cooking, fixing something, talking about things that bother us in society and etc. I’ve even come to a new mode of thinking in my life: some people go with the popular meme WWJD (what would jesus do), I now follow the WWMD (What Would Mom Do). It works for me. It makes me now think of the main thing that Mom would do and that is - she doesn’t take shit from anybody! I’m now happily at the place and this journey has been rewarding. I’m thoroughly convinced now that she made it happen, she was here the whole time. I know now just how much she loved me...